....or doves to those who remember my old blog.
It's funny seeing me start a new blog again from the old website, I had a hard time with regular updates and it seemed easier just to post any updates on Facebook. It was and is easy to just pop a small block of text onto my wall and eventually into the newsfeed and leave it at that. My problem, I've found while scrolling is that I caught myself comparing my emotional and personal post to other people's emotional and personal posts. I saw my posts as less relevant when compared to someone going through a really bad struggle or seeing other people react more to other's posts with likes and comments. I eventually went to placing any emotional/personal post in 'Only Me' view. I'm pretty sure friends who had been paying attention and went to comment on a post only to find it come up 'missing'. It felt better to hide it so that only I could still see my pain, it was out of my system and onto 'paper' (or text in this case) and the pressure of expecting a reaction, any reaction, would go away. Here though it's just me and that weird feeling I get posting. So this is why I thought about trying a blog again.
Well, now that the heavy stuff is out of the way.
I've redone the website again, I keep redoing it to try to fit where i'm evolving as an artist. It started primarily as a Cosplay site, then I attempted to make it more of a blog (only), then I tried a store, artwork and photos only and back to a Cosplay site with announcements to what it is now a central place for the store (or at least links to it), the Cosplay activies (which aren't the primary focus anymore) and some artz. I think I have a good balance this time of everything that it doesn't feel crowded or chaotic. I hope I can leave it in this new format for awhile. It's not always the easiest revamping an entire website.
I can't remember but, I think I started this page back in 2014...maybe 2013 but I think 2014. So that's exciting to think about.
I'm trying to focus on the projects I have at the moment. It makes it a bit difficult when you have a house instead of an apartment and I've changed/got promoted to new jobs within a couple of months. I did take a commission awhile back and find myself having a hard time not hating what I draw out. The artist struggle is real. Crafting projects come and go, if it's easy I can pop out something in a little over a week. If it's harder I tend to let them collect dust on the shelf unfortunately.
Trying not to get sad and balance everything isn't always easy for me.
Thanks for sitting through and reading my sad meh post, lol. I'll try to be more cheery.
Love and light,