Very early morning greetings doves,
"People always say 'Life is full of choices' no one ever mentions...fear" -On a Journey to the Past - Anastasia
At the beginning of this year I had made the decision to dig deeper into the mysteries of my father's family's roots. As a girl I would often hear my father speak of stories of Lousiana, I would watch videos he rented from the library about the culture down there, I would laugh at how funny the people sounded and I would listen to my grandfather play country, folk and zydeco songs on his mandolin. However, as I began to grow and ask specific questions about our family I was left with excuses and silence and from my father, he wanted me to concentrate more on my mother's Asian background in my siblings and I (He never wanted us to forget that and we were reminded on a weekly basis).
For many years when people would ask about my ethnic background I would have lots of information on my mother's side and was left to say...Oh my father is white. That was the end of the story.
Time passed, my grandfather grew ill and passed into the aether and my own father aging after him. It was the year after that I decided to do some investigating on my own. In Februrary I tried my best with my sister to make a King Cake, a tradition of Mardi Gras. I had even planned a trip to Louisiana for Mardi Gras with another person of half-Cajun makeup, that plan fell through and I continued my search. I looked from anywhere on the internet to the genealogy center, I didn't get as far as I would like.
It appears that my keys lay in the knowledge of the living relatives who were closest to my grandfather and the ones still living in Louisiana. I have asked and jumped to talk at anyone who has posted on Facebook about relatives (sometimes, regrettably frightening them into silence that they don't know anything), I desperately reach out for as much as I can to learn about the mysteries of my family and hopefully to find something within myself, to quell this driving feeling.
I will be journeying south soon for another reason too, as Lousiana is a reputed hot spot for spiritual activity, I will be delving into everything it's charms has to offer. It will be even more abuzz as gates of Samhain will be open along with El Dia de los Muertos on top of our traditional Halloween. It will be interesting to say the least. I will be taking my journal with me for the trip.
How about something fun to chat on...
I will be attending Lestat's Coronation Ball at the Republic in New Orleans, Lousiana. Anne Rice will be in attendance and will be releasing her book Prince Lestat on the 28th of October. I hope I can purchase one for myself and have it signed. I have plans to visit the Bayou, Plantation homes, a historic women's history of New Orleans trip and many other things along with meeting family members I have heard but, never seen.
The anticipation is killing me. I can't wait!
Love x Peace
A twenty-something, fabric hoarding, geek loving, freelance artist who is young at heart and has a sense of adventure.