A most amiable evening wish to you all tonight,
What I have to share will be less about cosplay, sewing and crafting and more on the other activities I like to occupy my time with. I wonder how many people at my age can say that they are happy with their lives at this very moment? The Guardian states 'It is supposed to be the time of opportunity and adventure, before mortgages and marriage have taken their toll. But struggling to cope with anxieties about jobs, unemployment, debt and relationships, many young adults are experiencing a "quarterlife crisis", according to new research by British psychologists .' That's really disheartening to think about, a few years ago I would have been marching along with those same 'shackled together', jaded, screwed-by-life, 20-somethings struggling with their own self-identity in a time when everything for our generation has gone to 'Hell in a pretty little handbasket'.
I grew up in a small, rundown, one level rented, ranch-style home with a basement that flooded and was full of black mold, a garage that had boxes piled to the ceiling full of spiders and old memories and one bathroom for five people. My sister and I shared a room and bed all the way up till mid-high school. Eating at McDonald's was considered a luxury that we could only afford if someone bought it for us or we got extra money and our only hobbies and activities revolved around watching rented movies from the library and drawing, since copy paper could be brought home to us for free from the company my mother worked for -who tossed away each lifeless tree product by the lb. I'm pretty sure i've painted enough of a picture.
I used to hate to think that I didn't grow up in a normal, picturesque, American Dream lifestyle like all the others at school. As I grew older I eventually came to appreciate my odd upbringing and at times even be very thankful for it as I felt (in some ways) it gave me character. Let's return to the jaded 20-somethings, In my early 20's, with all my oddities, managed to actually build the American Dream lifestyle for myself. The one that I had always yearned for in my youth. It was great, I felt for the most part that I had my head screwed on straight, had a plan, had it all. Then something crazy happened... It all started falling apart! Little by little, like watching someone spend so much time meticulously placing dominoes in a beautiful spiral only to watch one ivory tile hit the next until it was all destroyed.
I was devastated.
Like most of us when too many negative occurrences happen too close together you just sort of throw in the towel for a few years and lie down and let your soul catch a few cobwebs and dustbunnies.
I can't remember exactly when I snapped out of it. It's like the quote from The Fault in Our Stars, "I fell in love the way you fall asleep. Slowly, and then all at once." It was a mixture of things that I considered "small" at the time like helping people and receiving help, making a bucketlist and a vision board. Two things for me that always stick out in my mind when thinking about this turnaround was watching the movie 'Yes Man' with Jim Carrey and Zoey Deschanel and watching MTVs 'The Buried Life'.  I continue to keep a list written down above my bed and check off all the things "I want to do before I die." 
It's really amazing what you can accomplish if you treat everyday (if you can) like it's your last. Hopefully you'll learn to balance like I eventually did and not wear yourself out. I can safely say at this time in my life i'm pretty happy with my life despite odds. Anyways, I need to get to the exciting things I'd like to share!
Speaking of growing as a person, something amazing happened today. I finally met with photographer, Tom Krakow after a year and a mishap with an un-notified Facebook message about one of his public photography session events. It's really refreshing to meetup with someone who is so driven by his artistic vision. He had a lot of advice and information to share. The amazing thing was that I left that photo session crying, not because I was sad or hurt or anything bad. I actually discovered something about myself that I had placed a veil over.
He felt inspired and wanted to try some experimental photos. He wanted me to express raw emotions in front of the camera, which I was actually afraid to do. Most photographers i've shot a few pictures with, all I had to do was be pretty. That's easy. That's what society tells us (females) we need to be.
Pretty little robots. 
It was enlightening to let go for a small moment.
I also didn't want a few tears to be the end of my day so I went to the local Ethnic Festival to check it out, it's an event I haven't visited in over a decade. There I picked up a beautiful Ankh necklace, a representation of death and rebirth and I came across a United Nations booth. I would like to continue to give and receive positive energy by joining these individuals in their desires to reach out and help others. I would like to conclude that even though we are born into certain situations or things happen that we don't have to become those things. We can be whomever we want, we hope for better things. I challenge you, if you are struggling, to start out small like a vision board and see what magic may begin to unfold in front of your eyes.
Love x Peace
A twenty-something, fabric hoarding, geek loving, freelance artist who is young at heart and has a sense of adventure.